Eeeeek. I go back to work next week, but for one week only. And it won’t be a slow transition either! I am going back for part of my executive development training program, fortunately this residential course is being held at my office so I don’t have to travel anywhere this time. BUT it does mean long days as we try to fit our team project work in evenings and the socialising is part of the course too.
So psychologically I am only going back for one week, I’m in a good place with this. However, physically in the milk bar department, I am not quite ready! Time has crept up on me. I have been pumping to get a freezer stash up for the past 6 weeks or so and have managed to store about 22oz. This should easily see Aviana through the first day! I will then be pumping whilst at work, fresh and ready for the following day. This is going to be a new experience for my body, and trying to figure out the logistics and timing of it all.
There are somethings I had forgotten about to get ready for this week….
- My cat Diesel chewed one of my breast pump tubes, so I need to order a new one in order to double pump;
- I don’t have a bag to carry my pump in (not a necessity, but definitely a nice to have) or a cooler bag for storing the milk;
- I have size 27mm large flanges and I want to try the smaller ones – 24mm because my hand pump is smaller and a bit more comfortable, although if I am not careful and not paying attention it is easy for my nipple to not be centred and get sore;
- I haven’t tried hands free pumping yet…I should probably practice that this week with my hands free ‘bra’! Not the kind of thing to be trying out in a 20 minute break!
Chris and Chris’s dad will be looking after Aviana whilst I am away. I know they will do a great job, I am not nervous about that. I am nervous about Aviana taking milk from the bottle. Chris has been giving her milk from the bottle at night time feeds, and recently we tried it in the morning, but she really fusses over it and it’s a long drawn out process to get her to take more than 1oz in a feed. She is getting better at taking milk from the nanny, but she is not taking much – an average of 1-1.5oz. She needs more than that and I’m nervous about her losing weight. Especially as she has dropped a night feed recently.
I am also a little nervous about her going on a nursing strike! What if she decides to like the bottle more than me??!
I know things will work out, and she will be fine, but I am a new mummy and I am allowed to feel like this! I am looking forward to doing something intellectually stimulating, I’m just not sure how compatible it will be with feeding Aviana at 2 or 4 AM! I wonder just how will my baby brain fair?!