My blood test results all came back within the normal range â however, I am still missing some results, so not all questions have been answered. The doctor wasnât sure why the results hadnât come back yet or if those particular tests were ever done. But so far my rheumatoid arthritis factor, insulin and inflammation levels, they are all within the normal range. Thatâs a relief to hear that it is unlikely to be rheumatoid arthritis. So the doctor who called me with the results (not my doctor because she was on leave) prescribed me naproxen to see if that would help alleviate. The drugs made no difference, I took them for a week but no change. I still wake up in the morning very stiff, sore and in pain in my hands, wrists, toes, ankles and knees.  And then throughout the day my fingers will be noticeably sore at various points unless I keep them moving. So the current theory remains â postpartum joint pain, crazy hormones, and apparently my body is unlikely to return to normal until after I stop breastfeeding.
Some things people in my breastfeeding support group who had experienced similar suggested â cutting out grains (apparently causes inflammation), vitamin D supplements, chiropractor and naturopathic doctor. Iâm inclined to find a naturopathic doctor. Part of my brain has been tempted to stop breastfeeding as a result of the pain, but then I figure what if it has nothing to do with breastfeeding? Then Iâd be stopping for no reason, and Iâd regret it. And Iâm not going to do that just yet.
Iâve been on work travels again, to Paris this time, and it was another reminder of how much of a pain in the ass pumping is.  Dragging the pump, parts, storage, sanitizing stuff, special bag, hands free bra and cover, through airport security, across the Atlantic and to my host office is tiresome. Trying to remember to make sure I have everything in my bag, cleaning out the bottles and parts, proper storage and handling, dumping milk I canât store, it gets tedious, especially doing all this in another country.  One of my colleagues said he was impressed I am still doing it, but I said Iâm probably more stupid than impressive.
Iâm only pumping three times a day now, I should definitely be doing four pumps because my supply has suffered, so Iâm supplementing a couple of ounces a day. Whilst I have been on my travels Chris has been feeding Aviana milk from my frozen stash. I managed to build up 6.5 days supply from May to July back when I had a couple of ounces to freeze at the end of the week. I am hoping I can replace the four days supply with milk Iâve been pumping whilst in Paris â Iâm currently carrying with me about 70oz home in my checked luggage. Iâm hoping it all survives the journey, because my days of any over-supply are gone. Iâve had a little bit of success at increasing my supply with lactation cookies, body armour drink motherâs milk tea, but only managed to get an extra 1-2oz per day, so Iâve been short a few ozs still. I donât want to stress over it, so Iâm not going to go to extra ordinary lengths to get my supply back up. The only other thing I might try is consider renting a hospital grade pump to see if that makes a difference; my pump is second hand, so there is a slight chance itâs losing its power and has not been removing the milk enough. Exclusively pumping is HARD! My hats off to all of you who do it all the time. Iâm not sure I would have survived this long if it hadnât been for the facebook group âexclusively pumping mamasâ.
Speaking of travels, this time was harder to leave Aviana than it was when I last travelled in May. Mostly, because I feel like she notices when I am there or not, but also because I generally miss her more! I also miss Chris too and get jealous of them having fun together. My next work trip is in October, but this time I am taking Aviana with me because I have two conferences in the UK, but I would be leaving Chris behind for two weeks! I will be flying transatlantic on my own with a 9.5 month old, who is on the verge of being mobile. I swore I wouldnât fly again on my own with a baby! Am I crazy? Probably. No, definitely. BUT itâs a great opportunity to take Aviana back to see family and friends, so I will seize this as a positive opportunity and try not to worry about the possibility of a few (several) hours of hell.
Currently, Aviana and I are not sitting together on the transatlantic flight because we have two different classes of tickets (in economy!).  American airlines have not been very helpful when I called them to see if we could get seats together in the ones designed for infants, but the woman on the phone said “you need to do it online otherwise I have to charge you $50 to do it on the phone or wait to check in”.  Clearly this woman was not understanding the fact that I couldn’t do it online and waiting to check in would probably mean the chances of us sitting together would be zero – and oh, did I mention I am with my 9 MONTH OLD BABY?!?!  She couldn’t understand why I paid for a seat anyway, was her attitude.  Clearly she hasn’t flown transatlantic with a baby before. I was at work so didn’t have time to complain, accepted it in typical British fashion.  So now I reckon I will be sat in the middle of a row pissing other passengers off with my squirming, crying baby on a red eye.  But I have a plan – I’ve put my seat in the ‘extra leg room’ seat (I get it for free because of my airline miles status)…and am hoping someone traveling on their own who is currently sat next to Aviana will jump at the chance to swap with me to get extra leg room.  IT’S SOOOOO STUPID.
Wish me luck!!!
The Inconceivable Adventures of Parenthood 